Rambling

We only get one life. It is composed of these seconds and minutes we race through or cherish. It's really hard. It's difficult for me to work out. I don't want to waste a minute. But what counts as waste, and what counts as something you just have to get done because life isn't just about having fun, but about responsibility. I guess some people would argue that you can't make every second meaningful. And what is meaningful anyways? I love the time I spend sitting next to Patrick while he plays Oblivion and I ask him questions (because I want to figure out my own course of action in the game) and he answers so patiently while he's trying to fight off morts, which stresses me out. Are we wasting time? Maybe. But I just love being with him, and I know playing these games is a way of relaxing for him. And if I can share that relaxation time, I'm there.

I guess part of determining the meaningfulness of a moment is figuring out what your endgame is. Being close to my husband and spending time with him is important to me. Thus our meaningful computer game moments.

But what about in jobs? I sit at this desk all day wondering if what I do counts. Or if I'm working against what I believe. In that case, I should go! But, I don't know where to go next. And part of life is responsibility - and I need to work to stay busy and to help us reach our goals.

Rambling.